You just have to brush off the pain.

[haileyjordan]

Cassandra,
"Okay," I said softly before I headed upstairs. I walked into our room and looked around; everything looked the same. I took a big breath and smiled. It was nice. I opened my suitcase and grabbed a bottle. I pulled out two pills, swallowing them dry. At first I could never do that, but I eventually leaned how to.

Joshua,
I shook my head, "It was an instinct I guess. You panicked. Don't be too hard on yourself," I said as I took a seat. If she couldn't believe she did that then why was she continuing this morning? It confused me.

[lauren.]

Rodney;
I pulled out the food that I had made and began placing it on the table. Finally, a table for two. I grinned at this thought. I placed everything out that needed to be and ran a hand through my hair as I looked towards the stairs. Wait, she was here right? I didn't imagine any of this, did I?

Darcy;
I sighed as I leaned against the counter, taking a sip. "Can we throw it all out today?"I asked looking across at him. The liquor had to go. It couldn't just linger in this house to tempt him.

[haileyjordan]

Cassandra,
I let out a small sigh before I shoved them back into my suitcase, zipping it up before I went back downstairs. I went over to Rodney and smiled, "Like old times again," I said as I kissed him. I felt like it was Christmas; it was perfect.

Joshua,
I let out a sigh, "I was waiting for that," I mumbled as I rubbed the back of my neck. "But yes, I'm willing to." Today was going to suck, I was going to lose it I could already tell.

[lauren.]

Rodney;
I grinned as I kissed her back,"It's nice,"I said helping her into her seat then sitting down in my seat. "Enjoy baby,"I said as we began to dig in. I made what pretty much were her favorite things.

Darcy;
I walked over to him, leaning down to kiss his cheek,"It'll be okay,"I said looking into his eyes as I rubbed his shoulder. I knew this would be hard and I planned for a fight but it will get better. At the thought of this my wrist began to throb.

[haileyjordan]

Cassandra,
I looked at everything and it all looked so good, it really did. I just didn't have the appetite I used to. I took a bite anyways though, "This is so good," I said with a smile. Why was eating so hard? Why couldn't I enjoy it?

Joshua,
I drank more of my coffee, not wanting what was to come to happen anytime soon. I stood up, "Let's just get it over with now," I said with a nod. The sooner the better, so I didn't have so much time to dwell on it.

[lauren.]

Rodney;
I smiled,"I worked for awhile on it. I really kind of just winged everything. I've been wanting to come and get you for awhile, I just wanted to make sure I was well first,"I said taking a drink of water.

Darcy;
I nodded,"Sounds good. We'll start by gathering everything together then we'll pour it all down the drain so you wont be tempted by it being outside in the garbage,"I said as I went to where I knew some alcohol was.

[haileyjordan]

Cassandra,
"I'm really impressed Rodney, and it means a lot to me, it really does," I smiled. No man had ever gone this far just to win me over, which made me feel guilty all over again. Why was I so stupid? Only because I thought I lost him forever.

Joshua,
"This will be so fun," I said sarcastically with a slight chuckle. Even though I sounded calm, I was freaking out inside. This was going to be a very slow, painful death of basically half of me.

[lauren.]

Rodney;
I smiled,"I'm glad you like it,"I said. As I was eating I noticed that she wasn't really eating. It made me take a closer look at her and realize that she had lost weight. She was already perfectly skinny so there's no reason for her to be loosing weight.

Darcy;
I kissed his cheek,"Just breathe,"I said as I began pulling bottles out of the cabinets, placing them by the sink. "Keep in mind why you're doing this and that's it's for the best,"I said.

[haileyjordan]

Cassandra,
I noticed Rodney looking at me as I took a sip of my water. I immediately blushed, "What?" I asked with a small smile. I kind of had forgotten that I had lost weight so that whole concept slipped my mind.

Joshua,
I took a deep breath, "I know, you're right." I said as I looked at the bottles on the sink. My throat ached for a taste, I could almost feel myself tearing up. Wow I was pathetic. "Can I just have a small goodbye taste?" I asked.

[lauren.]

Rodney;
I stared at her for a moment long then went back to eating,"It just seems like you've lost some weight,"I said glancing over at her.

Darcy;
I raised an eyebrow and shook my head,"No,"I said simply. "Now go find where you've hidden other bottles from me,"I said crossing my arms as I looked at him.

[haileyjordan]

Cassandra,
I instantly lost my appetite once he said that. I slumped a little in my chair as I stared at my fork. "I've just been running a lot. I lose more weight than I gain muscle," I totally lied. I hated running honestly. I wasn't getting the right nutrients I needed.

Joshua,
My hands twitched as I let out a small groan. "I can't carry it all," I whined. This was going to be a long morning and I knew I couldn't keep my cool forever.

[lauren.]

Rodney;
I raised an eyebrow as I sat back in my chair,"Cass, you hate running,"I said crossing my arms. I knew she was lying but I didn't know why she would lie to me. Maybe it's because I've lied to her so many times before about drinking?

Darcy;
I raised an eyebrow,"Wow. Well I guess we're gonna be doing a lot of walking. Come on, show me where it's at,"I said turning him and pushing him towards the living room.

[haileyjordan]

Cassandra,
"People change when they don't know what to do with themselves Rodney," I said simply. "Now if you'll excuse me I'm going to do the dishes," I added softly as I got up, walking into the kitchen as my heart pounded. What a great way to start over.

Joshua,
I walked into the living room as I opened the cabinets under the tv. I pulled out two big bottles of vodka, stared at them, then gave them to Darcy. I went behind the tv and grabbed a few beers, swallowing. "I don't think I can do this," I said.

[lauren.]

Rodney;
I was shocked by what she said. So she was loosing weight that she shouldn't have been loosing to change? What? I stared at her untouched plate of food wondering what the hell was going on. Weren't we starting over?

Darcy;
I was completely shocked at how much and how well he has hidden these. "You can do it. Just think of why you're doing it,"I said taking the bottles from him. The weight from the huge bottles strained my wrists causing me to hiss from the pain a little bit but I tried not to make that obvious.

[haileyjordan]

Cassandra,
I instantly felt bad that I went off at him like that. After all he had just done for me, I was acting like a total bitch. I lingered in the kitchen a couple minutes longer before I went back out to Rodney, chewing on my lip. "I'm really sorry for blowing up on you like that. I just get sensitive around that topic. I know that wasn't how I should've acted. I didn't mean to be a bitch," I said as I looked down.

Joshua,
I looked over from her, "Why don't we empty your hands first?" I asked, considering it looked like she was having a rather difficult time. My head was pounding as I stared at the bottles in my hands. They were so precious.