You just have to brush off the pain.

[haileyjordan]

Cassandra,
I looked at him, "It's okay. I shouldn't have been so harsh. I just don't want to fight. I hate it when we fight, because stuff like this happens. I don't ever want to have to leave again." And that was the truth; I would probably do far worse things that I was doing now.

Joshua,
I was sitting on the curb, my hands completely shaking as I stared at the gravel. I had lost it; my mind had lost it. I put my head in my hands as I took a deep breath, though it didn't help my situation at all.

[lauren.]

Rodney;
I nodded as I wrapped my arms around her pulling her close,"I love you,"I said kissing her head,"And I'm glad you're home."

Darcy;
I sighed as I threw everything away. I went out to the front, crossing my arms from the cold. "Josh?"I said as I walked quietly over to him.

[haileyjordan]

Cassandra,
I leaned into his chest, "I love you too, so much," I said as I felt a few tears stream down my cheeks. I hadn't had this much emotion all at once in a long time. "Can we start over now?" I asked.

Joshua,
I ignored her calling me as I continued to stare at the pavement. Great, that meant she was done. I felt a lump forming in my throat, and my eyes even got slightly teary. I just felt like I couldn't do this, and I was going to lose it. And even worse, hurt Darcy.

[lauren.]

Rodney;
I nodded,"All over,"I said rubbing her arm. I stuck my hand out,"Hi, my name is Rodney,"I said smiling and ended up chuckling a little bit.

Darcy;
I chewed on my lip, knowing that he was having an extremely hard time with this. "Josh?"I said running a hand through my hair.

[haileyjordan]

Cassandra,
I couldn't help but giggle myself, "I didn't mean that far back," I said with a smile as I kissed his cheek. "Only to when we were first in love." I smiled as my eyes blazed with love as I looked at him.

Joshua,
I took a deep breath and exhaled a very shaky, unstable breath. "Darcy," I said, my voice cracking. "This is going to be a lot harder than I thought."

[lauren.]

Rodney;
I smiled loving the sound of her small laugh. I caressed her face with one of my hands,"I can do that,"I said as I brought our lips together, kissing her with every ounce of love. I've missed having her in my arms.

Darcy;
I moved beside him, taking a seat next to him,"That's why I'm here to help. What do you need me to do to take your mind off of it?"I asked as I placed a soft hand against his shoulder. Maybe I'm not understanding the complete anxiety he's going through but I want t help.

[haileyjordan]

Cassandra,
I wrapped my arms around his neck as I kissed him with with all the passion I could give towards someone. It was hard to believe I hadn't kissed him in a couple months. I felt like I never stopped kissing him. I pulled away and rested my forehead against his. "You make me so happy."

Joshua,
"Bring everything back," I said with a light chuckle, quickly wiping my eyes. I was actually crying? What a baby I was. I chewed on the inside of my cheek as I sighed. "I don't know right now."

[lauren.]

Rodney;
I smiled as I closed my eyes, my breathing slightly husky from.the kiss. "I'm glad it's me and not some other guy,"I said running my hand up and down her back. It just felt good to touch her, to know she's safe with me in the warmth of our home.

Darcy;
I wiped a stray tear off his cheek, feeling horrible for doing this. I have never seen him cry and this hurt me. I feel like a horrible person. I breathed in as I leaned over and kissed his cheek. "I'm sorry,"I whispered softly,"I'll be inside when you're ready to come in,"I said squeezing his shoulder gently. I crossed my arms as I walked back inside, my arm throbbing for attention.

[haileyjordan]

Cassandra,
"You're the only one Rodney. No one else is as perfect for me as your are," I said as I rested my head on his shoulder. I was already growing extremely tired, but I didn't want to leave his arms. If I had more than three pills a day I was usually knocked out, and I had four today so it was going to hit me very soon.

Joshua,
I nodded as I looked out at the sky. I had to grow up and get over it. Nothing was going to change if I kept acting like a baby. I ran my hand through my hair before I took a deep breath. I just needed a few more minutes to gather myself.

[lauren.]

Rodney;
I grinned,"Good to know. Are you ready for bed?"I asked as I continued to rub her back. I needed to know what she was hiding but I didn't want to break her privacy by going through her things. That's not right.

Darcy;
I glanced back outside before I went upstairs back to the bathroom. This time shutting the door and locking it. I took a deep breathe in as I want to find another razor. I don't know what's wrong with me but I know I'm.hurting Josh. It's hurting me as well so I feel like I need to inflict myself worse. I got everything ready, turning the bathtub on quietly.

[haileyjordan]

Cassandra,
"I don't want to go to bed, but I'm not sure how much longer I'll be able to stay up," I said with a small laugh before I slid off of his lap. I got my pajamas out of my unemptied suitcase and went into the bathroom. I felt a little embarrassed of my body now. I wasn't anorexic or anything, but I could use more weight.

Joshua,
I got up and headed back inside, not even bothering to go near the kitchen. I went into the living room and turned on the tv. I figured Darcy just needed some alone time for a bit; I had to give that to her.

[lauren.]

Rodney;
I sighed as I glanced over at her suitcase, but decided against going through it at the moment. I got up and decided to go clean up our uneaten food before we headed to bed.

Darcy;
I unwrapped the bandage around my wrist, staring at it. It looked ugly. Maybe I should start on a different line, but keeping it on the same arm. I breathed in as I took the blade down and cut a fresh new line, breathing in deeply at the pain. The first cut I had was throbbing as if it wanted to be loved. I swallowed not being able to stop myself from reopening the other two.

[haileyjordan]

Cassandra,
I walked out of the bathroom, suddenly growing extremely weak as I slid into bed. It felt so good to be back in our bed, and not some dumb hotel bed. I wrapped the blankets around me as I smiled, basically asleep already.

Joshua,
I sunk into the couch, trying to release all the anxiety that I had built up. I just wanted to talk to Darcy, but would now be the time? I just felt like I was a bit too emotional to talk normally.

[lauren.]

Rodney;
After about twenty minutes, I finally finished cleaning everything up. I yawned and turned the lights off heading upstairs. I walked into the bedroom and smiled at Cass already asleep in bed. I changed into some Pajama bottoms and turned the lights off, crawling into bed next to Cass. I wrapped my arms around her pulling her against me,"Goodnight baby,"I murmured.

Darcy;
I began crying, not only because of the pain in my arm, but because of what I was doing to Josh. I watched as the blood began dropping into the bathtub, turning the water red. I don't know why I was doing this.

[haileyjordan]

Cassandra,
I smiled as he wrapped his arms around me and I rested my head on his chest. "Goodnight," I said softly. "I love you." I quickly drifted off into an extremely deep sleep, a side effect of the pills.

Joshua,
I realized that Darcy was upstairs for a long time, and that wasn't normal. I turned off the tv and headed upstairs, staying quiet though. I went into our room and saw the bathroom door shut. Oh god no, not again. I also heard her crying and began to panic. "Darcy?" I asked as I tried to open the door, but realized it was locked. "Darcy you need to come out, please," I begged.