You just have to brush off the pain.

[lauren.]

Rodney;
I sighed as I placed my hands against the counter. I could have lost her today. The reality has hit as I started shocked at myself in the mirror. I needed to stay calm for Cass's sake. I breathed in and out through my nose, resting my elbows against the counter and holding my head in my hands.

Darcy;
I pouted as he left the room. It was going to be hard for me to relax since I know what he's doing. I closed my eyes and pulled the covers over my head, wanting to go back to sleep.

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Cassandra,
I slid into our bed as I wrapped myself in the sheets. I just needed to melt away the pain, melt away my mind; just for tonight. I sighed quietly to myself, staring at the wall.

Joshua,
Once I finished my shower and changed I went into the kitchen and grabbed a trash bag. I let out a sigh and headed back up to the bathroom, where the razors where mainly held. I began throwing them in the bag, hating even having to do it in the first place.

[lauren.]

Rodney;
I washed my face and slipped out of my clothes only leaving my boxers on. I went into the bedroom, turning the light off, and crawling into bed wrapping my arms around her.

Darcy;
I could hear everything he was doing and I didn't like it. I breathed in as I gripped the bed beneath me. What was going to happen to me now?

[haileyjordan]

Cassandra,
I rested my head on his chest, "I love you so much," I said quietly, drawing circles on his stomach. I just felt so glad that he accepted me no matter what, and I knew that he loved me.

Joshua,
I was shocked at how many she had. "God..." I said quietly. I even saw the blood on some of the razors. This was killing me, but it had to stop.

[lauren.]

Rodney;
I buried my face in her hair,"I love you too,"I said as I rubbed her back. I was glad to be able to hold her in my arms. It's the greatest feeling in the world.

Darcy;
I covered my ears not wanting to hear anything more. But my breathing began to get out of hand.

[haileyjordan]

Cassandra,
I smiled before I shut my eyes, trying my best to just drift to sleep, but it was a lot harder than it used to me. Every time I would get close to sleep, it would replay in my head.

Joshua,
I had cleaned out everything I could find and emptied it into the trashcan outside. I went back into the bedroom and looked at Darcy, seeing her panicking a bit. "You okay babe?" I asked her.

[lauren.]

Rodney;
I could feel Cass drift to sleep then wake up quickly after. "Everything's okay baby,"I whispered into her ear as I kissed her forehead.

Darcy;
I stared up at the ceiling, feeling like I was hypervenilating. I closed my eyes tightly, not saying anything.

[haileyjordan]

Cassandra,
"I can't sleep," I told him quietly as I looked up at him. I was trying, so hard to sleep. Kyle had scarred me.

Joshua,
I went over to her, taking her hand. "Baby it's okay. Please, this is for the best," I said.

[lauren.]

Rodney;
I looked down at her, smoothing her hair away,"I know. Trust me, you're safe now. Here in my arms. I won't let anything or anyone hurt you,"I said kissing her forehead.

Darcy;
I squeezed my eyes shut tight. "I know but this is hard,"I said squeezing his hand tightly. What am I going to do? Will I go crazy? More than likely.

[haileyjordan]

Cassandra,
"I keep trying to tell myself that, but my mind thinks otherwise. I just feel like I'm still there when I close my eyes," I told him, letting out a sigh.

Joshua,
I rubbed her hand with my thumb. "It will be. When you threw out my alcohol I thought for sure I'd be locked up in jail for going insane, but I made it through, and so can you." I said to her.

[lauren.]

Rodney;
I frowned slightly, not know how else to help her sleep. I kissed her lips softly,"I'm sorry baby,"I said smoothing my hand down her side. I wanted to be in her place so she didn't have to go through this.

Darcy;
I relaxed slightly as his thumb rubbed my hand. I felt some tears slide down my cheeks as I opened my eyes to look at Josh. "I'm sorry,"I whispered, knowing that I'm putting him through a lot.

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Cassandra,
"So am I," I said with a frown. "I'm going to go make myself some tea," I said as I got up, heading out of the room. I rubbed my head as I went into the kitchen.

Joshua,
"Don't be sorry please. I understand everything that you're going through." I looked at her, trying to make her believe it. "Everything will be okay."

[lauren.]

Rodney;
I sighed and rubbed my face as I rolled into my back. I love this woman and I can't take her fears away. That's what I'm supposed to do.

Darcy;
I sat up wiping my tears away,"Okay,"I said, some of the weight on my shoulders being lifted. I knew he was here to help because he loves me.

[haileyjordan]

Cassandra,
I leaned against the counter, my mug in my hand as I traced the top of the cup with my finger. I didn't want to go anywhere, I didn't want to do anything. I just felt like I was falling apart.

Joshua,
I took her face and gave her a long, hard kiss. "Don't ever doubt it. I will always do whatever I can to make things better."

[lauren.]

Rodney;
I was completely worn out but I didn't want to be selfish and sleep when Cass couldn't. I sat up, placing my head in my hands. Damn, Kyle. Damn, drugs.

Darcy;
I was left breathless from his kiss as I listened to him. I looked into his eyes,"I believe you,"I whispered as I placed my hands against his.