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Post by lauren. on May 15, 2013 10:37:28 GMT -5
Harper. I breathed in and shook my head,"Im not the one you should be apologizing to,"I said as I looked down at my hands which were clutched tightly together.
Gabriel. I shook my head,"It's not mine,"I said over and over. Maybe this all was a lie. Maybe I don't really live here and they're just trying to keep me here for who knows what. Suddenly I felt my body freeze as a pain slowly crept up my body and went full force to my head. I gasped as I grabbed my head, squeezing my eyes shut tightly hoping that would help. What was wrong?
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Post by haileyjordan on May 15, 2013 21:37:05 GMT -5
Oliver, I sighed, "But you deserve an apology also. I just...I freaked out. Nothing intelligent comes out of my mouth when I panic. I just know that neither of them can handle that right now." I never meant to be rude about it, it just how it came out.
Ali, I put my hand on his leg, "Gabe please. You're hurting yourself. We can stop talking about it. Please don't do this now." I wanted to cry. I hated seeing him in pain. But I hated that he denied that the child was his, too.
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Post by lauren. on May 15, 2013 21:44:36 GMT -5
Harper. "You should learn how to be nicer when things happen that cause you to panic,"I said looking at Oliver sincerely. I don't want to keep getting angry with him when things like this happen and he panics. It's not healthy.
Gabriel. It felt like something was squeezing my head, possibly crushing my skull. I gasped gripping my head with my free hand. I couldn't help but try and roll around to get it to stop but then I would just feel pain all over due to my injuries. "I..I need it,"I gasped,"As dark in...here as possible,"I managed to get out before I yelled from pain.
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Post by haileyjordan on May 15, 2013 21:47:40 GMT -5
Oliver, I sighed, "I don't know how. I never learned to panic in a 'good way' I guess. Everyone always got mad at me when I did something wrong so I always thought it was okay." I ran my hand through my hair, looking at her.
Ali, "Oh god," I said as I quickly got up. I shut the blinds, made sure every crack was covered. I shut the door and slumped down against the wall, keeping dead silent. He always got headaches, and they were killers. This was all my fault. I should've never said anything.
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Post by lauren. on May 15, 2013 21:52:37 GMT -5
Harper. I nodded,"I understand that. But just so you know that doesn't fly with me,"I said shrugging slightly as I finally released my death grip of my hands. I let out a deep breathe, wishing things would get better already.
Gabriel. Migraines. They suck and apparently they've gotten worse since I fell. I couldn't help but cry from the pain. And I knew sooner or later I was going to vomit from the pain and I'm not sure if there was a pan in here or not for it. I ignored the pain in my body and I managed to lay back down, covering my head with the blankets,"Make it stop,"I cried over and over, just wanting everything to stop.
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Post by haileyjordan on May 15, 2013 21:58:34 GMT -5
Oliver, I smirked slightly, "A lot of things I do don't fly by you Harper. I just really try to make you happy, and I'm not doing my job right now. I'll apologize to Ali, I promise you. And I'll do whatever I can to make it up to you." I took her hand in mine, kissing it softly.
Ali, I couldn't do anything for him. I couldn't make his pain go away. I couldn't make him happy. "Gabe I don't know what to do," I finally said, my voice cracking from my own tears. "I love you so much, and I just can't do anything to help you or make you realize who you used to be."
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Post by lauren. on May 15, 2013 22:05:37 GMT -5
Harper. I bit my lip as I looked at him. I can never stay mad at him when he says things like that. "You can give me a kiss,"I said batting my eyelashes at him. "But that's only just a start,"I said smirking slightly.
Gabriel. Her voice was cutting in and out through the pain,"I won't be able to...remember anything Ali,"I said before I rolled over onto my good side and vomited onto the floor.
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Post by haileyjordan on May 15, 2013 22:11:40 GMT -5
Oliver, I grinned at her comment, "I'll take that," I said before taking her face in my hands, kissing her gently. We did get in fights, but we always knew how to resolve them.
Ali, I felt sick. Not because of his vomit, but because my whole world was pretty much coming to an end. What he told me, shattered me. I shot up, ripping the door open. I ran to the back door, flinging it open. "I can't do this anymore. Oliver just threw up, he has a migraine, he doesn't believe me and I think I want to die!" I screamed at the two. I didn't care anymore. I was just done.
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Post by lauren. on May 15, 2013 22:18:23 GMT -5
Harper. I pulled away from Oliver as I looked at Ali. I stood up and went over to her,"Calm down, please,"I said as I took her arms and pushed her back inside. I looked at Oliver,"Go see what you can do for Gabriel,"I said softly. I pushed Ali upstairs and into her room,"Ali, don't give up,"I said feeling my own heart breaking for her at how broken she looked.
Gabriel. I coughed and the groaned at all the pain. It needs to stop. Every time I try to remember or when something is sprung on me they hit hard. And I can't stop them. I began to cry wishing I was somewhere were I knew everything.
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Post by haileyjordan on May 15, 2013 22:24:18 GMT -5
Oliver, Ali was serious. I knew she was, and it terrified me. I shot up, quickly going into Gabe's room. I didn't turn the lights on, but went over to him, avoiding his throw up. "Gabe, you need to breathe. Just stop thinking about anything else but breathing," I told him calmly. I knew he was trying, and that's what always caused this.
Ali, "No Harper. No. I'm done. I am fucking done. He even told me he'll never remember. Everytime he tries he cries." I said in a mass hysteria of sobs. "I can't keep doing this. Life is offering me nothing. I want to die Harper. I just want to die." I had lost it.
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Post by lauren. on May 15, 2013 22:29:17 GMT -5
Harper. My eyes widened,"Absolutely not. You will let all of this pass and start new. Don't you dare say you want to die, Ali!"I said tears forming in my eyes. "Oliver and I care so much about you,"I said tugging at my hair completely nervous and frantic.
Gabriel. I gasped,"I can't Oliver. This is all too much,"I said tensing as more pain shot. "I-I can't keep acting like everything is okay,"I huffed out. I could feel the pain slightly subside but it was still too much to handle and I leaned over to throw up again.
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Post by haileyjordan on May 15, 2013 22:32:45 GMT -5
Oliver, I ran my hand through my hair. "Then don't. Don't act like everything is okay because we all know it isn't okay. None of this is your fault. The more you panic the sicker you'll get. Gabe I don't want to have to take you to the hospital again. You need to calm down. There has to be a way." I was very surprised at how calm I was staying, though I was screaming in my head.
Ali, My bottom lip quivered as I stared up at the ceiling. "But Gabriel doesn't. He doesn't care about me, he never will. He made me happy Harper. There isn't anyone like him." I shook my head, feeling very dizzy.
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Post by lauren. on May 15, 2013 22:38:45 GMT -5
Harper. "He will remember you, Ali. You have to have faith. It's only been a few weeks,"I said as I helped her to sit down on the bed. "Please don't think about this. We can work through this,"I said as I wiped my tears that had fallen.
Gabriel. "What am I supposed to do? Be angry the whole time?"I muttered as I buried my face into my pillow. I didn't want people pissed off at me if I act like everything is okay. The pain subsided but still a full throb in the back of my skull. I wiped my tears away wincing at the nasty taste in my mouth now.
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Post by haileyjordan on May 15, 2013 22:43:25 GMT -5
Oliver, I sighed, "No. But I know you're trying really hard to remember, and you're doing great, but I think it gets to you sometimes. Mentally. You still aren't healed Gabe. You don't have the strength you used to have. You have to realize that." I felt so bad for him. I knew he didn't want to live like this. None of us did.
Ali, "Oh god," I said, shutting my eyes. "A few weeks is too long. Next thing you know it'll be a year. Then what?" I asked. I wasn't a patient girl.
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Post by lauren. on May 15, 2013 22:48:47 GMT -5
Harper. I didn't know what to say anymore. She had her mind set and I don't know if she would change. I covered my face with my hands,"Ali,"I said breathlessly,"You've got to understand that he can't help what's going on sweetheart,"I said softly.
Gabriel. I was breathing heavy now,"Ali's pregnant,"I breathed out,"Apparently it's mine. Is it true?"I asked quietly as I turned my head to look at him. I don't remember being intimate with Ali, how can it be my child?
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