Sometimes we push away the ones we love.

[haileyjordan]

Gage,
I noticed her crying and couldn't help but smirk slightly. "Crying isn't going to get you anywhere Quinn," I said through my teeth. "No one came to fucking save me when I cried, why should anyone care now?" Even though my father wasn't here, I still felt the presence. I always had that creeping feeling that he never left. I still had her up against the wall, my grip getting tighter.

[lauren.]

Quinn;
Hearing him say this made me cry harder,"Gage, please,"I whimpered as I began to hypervenilate. What if he keeps going until he kills me? I breathed in deeply as I quickly lifted my leg and kicked him in the groin, hoping he'd let go but hoping he also wouldn't beat me.

[haileyjordan]

Gage,
I immediately released her from my grip as I bent over, taking in the pain. That action instantly scared me, because I was afraid she'd hurt me more. I knew she wa doing it out of defense, but who's to say she would stop? I just sort of stayed on the floor, not moving much. I was pissed, but terrified, just as she probably was.

[lauren.]

Quinn;
I stared down in shock that he let me go. I quickly moved away from him,"D-dont touch me,"I stuttered out as I quickly left our room, running to the bathroom and locking the door. I leaned against the wall, sobbing as I slid to the ground.

[haileyjordan]

Gage,
I watched her run out as I finally stood back up, swallowing. I had hurt her, and I know it was bad. I never wanted to be like my father, I was just raised in a violent household. It was the only way I knew how to act. Cussing, violence, rape, and yelling was how I was raised. I slid onto my bed as I pulled my sheets up, staring at the wall.

[lauren.]

Quinn;
I covered my face as I continued crying, pulling my knees to my chest. After I cried for awhile, I looked at my arms seeing the deep red handprints once again. I didn't feel safe with just myself around him but I have to be. We live in the same freaking house. I breathed in as I stood up, looking at myself in the mirror my face bright red somewhat purple.

[haileyjordan]

Gage,
I began to feel horrible for what I did to Quinn. She deserved nothing; she was only trying to help. I swallowed, knowing there was no way in hell I was going to apologize. I grabbed my anxiety pills from the desk and popped two into my mouth. I needed to calm down.

[lauren.]

Quinn;
I washed my face, wondering when these marks would go away. My parents would have a cow. I sighed and got out of the bathroom, looking both ways before I quickly headed into the kitchen to get some water.

[haileyjordan]

Gage,
I breathed in a shaky breath as I got ahold of myself. I needed to apologize to her, but honestly I was scared as hell. She'd never want to talk to me again, when in all reality, I felt like she was the person I needed to help me. I sat up and opened the door, staring at the hallway before I walked down it, rubbing my wrists as I approached the kitchen.

[lauren.]

Quinn;
I filled up my water glass and leaned against the cabinet as I took a drink. I heard Gage approach the kitchen and froze as I waited for him to come in.

[haileyjordan]

Gage,
I saw Quinn and how terrified she looked and I rubbed my neck. I wa putting her in the position I was always in, and it was horrible. "I'm really sorry for what I did Quinn,"& said as I looked at the floor, chewing on the I inside of my cheek. "I never mean to do things like that...I just can't help it. And I understand if you never want to, well, talk to me again. Because hell, I would never talk to myself," I rambled. "I'm a horrible person Quinn."

[lauren.]

Quinn;
I stared at him as he was apologizing. I wouldn't have ever thought that he would though I can't just say that it's okay because it's not. I bit my lip as I looked down at the floor,"You really hurt me,"I said quietly as I rubbed my arm.

[haileyjordan]

Gage,
I swallowed, "I know it's not. It's never okay," I say quietly. "I never mean to hurt anyone, and I sure as hell never meant to hurt you Quinn. I'm so sorry," I said as I looked up at her.

[lauren.]

Quinn;
I glanced over at him. I didn't know if I accept his apology or not. Okay, seeing him like this makes me want to. I bit my lip and just nodded,"Okay,"I said.

[haileyjordan]

Gage,
I knew it wasn't okay, but I wasn't going to push it. "I'm sorry," I said once more before I went into the living room. I plopped down onto the couch and turned the TV on, running a hand through my hair. Most of the time I just shrugged off hurting someone; but when it happened to me, it stuck forever. I stared at the tv, though I wasn't really watching it. I was thinking about how much of a jackass I was.