Il mondo è un libro e quelli che non viaggiano ne

[lauren.]

Valarie,
I was curled in one of the plush chairs in the library, staring out the window. I was reading a book but my mind couldn't focus. Things haven't been good at all. There have been nights where I just ended up breaking down in the shower because Giovanni wouldn't be able to hear me.

[haileyjordan]

Giovanni,
I ran my hand through my hair as I sat in my office, trying to concentrate on my work, but that wasn't working. I groaned and leaned back in my seat. She wasn't happy; I wasn't happy. Maybe the best thing for her was to go back home. Just thinking about it made me sick. I loved her so much. But I had learned that if you loved someone then sometimes it was best to let them go. I didn't want to accept that.

[lauren.]

Valarie,
I slammed the book shut and stood up. Someone needed to do something. I breathed in as I headed to his office, not even bothering to knock on the door. "What's happening?"I asked as I stood in the doorway.

[haileyjordan]

Giovanni,
I looked up and over at her before I sighed. "Valarie, I don't know." I said. I wanted to tell her what I honestly felt, but I was scared. I didn't want to hurt her. I couldn't live with myself.

[lauren.]

Valarie,
I gave out a frustrated noise,"You've got to know. This is eating me inside. I hate waiting for the unknown,"I said feeling helpless. I wanted an end to all of this tension and misery but I know that if we end up splitting...there will still be misery.

[haileyjordan]

Giovanni,
I stared at her a bit longer before I looked away. "We both know that we aren't happy. And I don't want it to always be like this. I just feel that...out of your happiness. Maybe you should go back to New York. And pretend this never happened. You were right from the start Valarie, this was all going to turn out bad." My heart broke in two as I said that, but I knew it was for the best. It was out of my love for her.

[lauren.]

Valarie,
My throat tightened up at what he said. I swallowed hard,"Pretend this never happened? How the hell am I supposed to do that? I fall in love in Italy with a fantastic guy and I'm supposed to go back to New York and forget this even happened? Bull shit?"I said as I held the tears back. I would not break down in front of him. I use to be a strong person and I still am, love wouldn't change that.

[haileyjordan]

Giovanni,
I kept my eye contact away from her until I couldn't bear it any longer. I looked up at her, "Valarie you aren't happy. I can't handle you not being happy. I love you too much to just let you be here and pretend nothing's wrong."

[lauren.]

Valarie,
I shook my head,"Im perfectly happy being here with you. Something changed that day you went and talked to your mother. Shecant help you can she? Do they even know I'm still here?"I asked my heart hurting way too much.

[haileyjordan]

Giovanni,
I shrugged, "I don't know," I said quietly. "I just think this was all blown out of proportion way too fast. I can't leave, and I know you don't want to stay here." I said, looking up at her, my throat becoming tight.

[lauren.]

Valarie,
My face fell,"How do you know I don't want to be here?"I said quietly. What the hell was going on? He wasn't even acting like himself. "You don't know that" I needed to know one thing, just one thing and maybe there will be hope later on down the road. I swallowed because I might end up in tears,"Do you still love me?"I asked quietly staring over at him.

[haileyjordan]

Giovanni,
I stood up and walked over to her, "I love you more than anything Valarie." I murmured. "That's why I'm doing this. It will just go downhill from now on if we keep doing what we're doing."

[lauren.]

Valarie,
I blinked back the tears, breathing in deeply as I took a step back when he came towards me. I crossed my arms as I looked away,"So this is really happening? You promised me this wouldn't happen!"I said as the anger swelled in my stomach and the pain and sorrow mixing together. I felt the tears fall over, wiping them away quickly.

[haileyjordan]

Giovanni,
I stared at her, seeing the anger and hurt rush through her. "But do you see what will happen to us? We're from two completely different worlds Valarie. I don't know how to live in your world, and I don't think you can take much more of mine," I told her, feeling rather defeated.

[lauren.]

Valarie,
My eyes widened slightly,"Two different worlds,"I said quietly. "What the hell is that supposed to mean? Oh I'm some poor girl from New York and your a rich Italian guy who can get anything he wants. Yeah, two completely different worlds,"I said glowering at him. My throat tightened, burning with pain. I looked away, trying to take a deep breathe in. "So I'm guessing you saw this in the beginning, that this would happen. I'm just another piece in your little game. Fine. I'll be out of here by tomorrow,"I said turning sharply on my heel and quickly got out of there before I completely broke down in front of him.