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Post by haileyjordan on Jan 9, 2013 22:32:03 GMT -5
Caleb, I clenched my jaw as I looked over at her, "I can't think about this right now!" I yelled at her. "You think I wanted this? Hell no! I can't handle this!" I shook my head, my hands shaking as I packed. I ignored her sobs, though I knew my heart was screaming at me for being such a complete asshole. I was just so terribly scared, and I the only thing I knew to do was run.
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Post by lauren. on Jan 9, 2013 23:09:55 GMT -5
Rosalie, "You think I wanted this too?! I don't but it's reality! Please don't leave me, I can't do this on my own. I can't support this baby by myself or keep this house,"I said walking slowly to him.
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Post by haileyjordan on Jan 11, 2013 0:06:58 GMT -5
Caleb, I put my bag on my shoulder as I turned to look at her. "I will pay for this damn house. But right now, I can't be here," I told her coldly as I walked out of the room, down the hallway.
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Post by lauren. on Jan 11, 2013 2:04:21 GMT -5
Rosalie, I stared at the empty doorway, just waiting for him to come back. He's joking right? Please tell me he is. Oh no... I felt a sob wrack my body, finally forcing me to the ground. "Please come back,"I whispered as I clutched at my chest.
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Post by haileyjordan on Jan 11, 2013 17:25:33 GMT -5
Caleb, I ignored Rosalie's cries as I walked to the door. I put my hand on the doorknob, taking in a deep, shaky breath before I opened it. I just couldn't take this. I couldn't handle it. I know I was running from my fear, but right now I didn't care.
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Post by lauren. on Jan 11, 2013 18:18:28 GMT -5
Rosalie, This was really happening... How could he do this. Oh God. I curled up into a ball on the floor just letting the sobs rip through my body. "Don't worry,"I whispered as I touched my stomach,"I won't abandon you,"I cried closing my eyes tightly.
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Post by haileyjordan on Jan 11, 2013 22:06:01 GMT -5
Caleb, I walked down to my car as I unlocked it, throwing my stuff in the trunk as I rubbed my face. I got into the drivers seat and looked at the house for a moment before I swallowed, pulling out of the driveway. I knew I'd hate myself for this later on. I drove down the road, my vision quite unclear. X________ Worst thing I've ever done. xD
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Post by lauren. on Jan 11, 2013 23:47:45 GMT -5
Rosalie, I cringed when I heard the door slam behind him and closed my eyes tight as I heard him drive away. I stayed on the floor for quite awhile, not really realizing the time that was passing, as I cried my heart out.
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Post by haileyjordan on Jan 12, 2013 0:17:19 GMT -5
Caleb, It had been months since I had talking to Rosalie. And in those months I realized how much of a douche I was, or better than that, every rude word you could possibly call someone. But I also realized I needed her in my life. Without her I was nothing. I wanted to be with her forever, I wanted to raise our child together. As I drove back to the house my hands were practically shaking. I was nervous as hell. I knew she would reject me, scream at me, possibly even murder me. She had every right to. I just wanted her to know that even if she didn't want me in her life, I wanted to be in hers. I drove through our neighborhood to the house, my heart feeling as if it would burst through my chest at any moment.
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Post by lauren. on Jan 12, 2013 0:26:27 GMT -5
Rosalie, It has been almost nine months since Caleb left and I can honestly say...I'm not better but I'm making it by. I'm not sad though, it's more turned into resentment and anger. Leaving me all alone. Being pregnant is hard & you can't get a job when pregnant because you need rest for both lives. My parents were angry, extremely angry, but thankfully they out that aside and realized I wouldn't be able to survive by myself. My mom had just left the house, checking up on me. I sat on the couch feeling like a fat huge whale. I sighed as I rubbed my stomach,"You better help me lose this weight later,"I murmured.
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Post by haileyjordan on Jan 12, 2013 0:32:16 GMT -5
Caleb, I reached our, or maybe her, house. It looked the same, and it made me realize how much I had missed it. I pulled up to the driveway, sitting in my car for about a minute, staring at my hands. Could I do this? I had to. She needed to know. Oh god, she was going to kill me. I'm a complete fuck up. I groaned and rubbed my face. But I learned that saying goodbye was the most painful way to solve a problem. I got out of the car, shutting the door as I walked up to the door. I stared at it, taking a deep breath before I knocked on the door, my hand shaking.
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Post by lauren. on Jan 12, 2013 0:40:01 GMT -5
Rosalie, I looked over at the door, frowning slightly. I stared down at the couch realizing that I had to get up. I groaned quietly as I pushed myself up struggling all the way. "Hang on!"I called out to let whoever it is know that I was actually coming. I paced a hand on my lower back as I waddled to the door. I swung it open,"Can I hel-"I stopped mid-sentence as I stared at Caleb, my insides dropping.
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Post by haileyjordan on Jan 12, 2013 0:47:43 GMT -5
Caleb, I stared at her, unable to even speak for a moment. She had grown so much, yet she was breathtaking. I swallowed, feeling horrible. "Rose..." I said. I didn't even know how to say anything now that I was face to face with her. "I'm so sorry." I whispered. "And I know I'm a douche, and a jackass, and an asshole. I know I am. I fucked up, more than I ever have in my entire life." I was so afraid of what was going to come out of her mouth.
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Post by lauren. on Jan 12, 2013 0:53:30 GMT -5
Rosalie, I heard the words he said but I was just so shocked. It had been so long...why now? Oh God, I might be sick. I could feel the anger burning inside of me, growing. My hand tightened on the door and then I slammed the door shut in his face. What the hell?! Why is he here? I placed my hand against my stomach,"You might want to close your ears little one,"I murmured. This is ridiculous! He cant just waltz back in here!
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Post by haileyjordan on Jan 12, 2013 0:56:14 GMT -5
Caleb, I stared at the door that she freshly slammed in my face. That hurt way more than words ever could. So, she was obviously pissed. "Rosalie please!" I yelled, panic setting in me. She wasn't going to take me back. Hell, I didn't deserve it. "Sorry doesn't even come close to how I feel! I know you hate me, but please! Open the door!" She had too. I needed her to.
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