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Post by haileyjordan on Aug 17, 2013 21:45:38 GMT -5
Gavin, I knew she was going to say that. "Ridley. Please. You can't hide things from me. The more you hide stuff the more it hurts." I said. I couldn't take any more of this secrecy.
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Post by lauren. on Aug 17, 2013 21:48:05 GMT -5
Ridley. I closed my eyes tightly breathing in deeply. He would kill him. "It's Scott,"I muttered. The guy who had given Gavin the pills a while back.
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Post by haileyjordan on Aug 17, 2013 21:49:32 GMT -5
Gavin, I clenched my jaw as I stopped moving. "Goddammit Ridley." I said with a groan. You'd think she'd learn from my experience that he wasn't someone to be around. "Why did you start this in the first place? Was I doing something wrong?"
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Post by lauren. on Aug 17, 2013 21:54:20 GMT -5
Ridley. I stood up looking at Gavin,"No, you've done nothing. You've done everything possibly right!"I said running a hand shakily through my hair. "I couldn't, I can't get over the fact that the cancer could possibly come back. Just randomly show up like it did in the beginning. I don't want that to happen. This took that fear, that anxiety away from me,"I said wanting to cry but I held it in.
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Post by haileyjordan on Aug 17, 2013 21:59:41 GMT -5
Gavin, "But then you'd pay the ultimate price. Ridley doing these drugs could widen the possibility of the cancer coming back. You need to take up something that can give you the same feeling in a healthier way, trust me." I said, looking at her. I knew she wanted to cry, but I also knew she was trying to be strong.
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Post by lauren. on Aug 17, 2013 22:02:41 GMT -5
Ridley. "But nothing I found could take it away. It's been growing like a black hole in my heart. Like the cancers still there, eating away,"I said closing my eyes. I hated feeling how I did right now. Vulnerable, hated, disappointment.
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Post by haileyjordan on Aug 17, 2013 22:04:22 GMT -5
Gavin, "But babe, it's not. You're free from it, you have to get that through your head. I know it's scary, it was scary for me too. But you pushed through it," I took her hands, "You have to push through this also. You're better than this."
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Post by lauren. on Aug 17, 2013 22:07:24 GMT -5
Ridley. I breathed in deeply, not looking at him. I looked at our hands together and how much it comforted me. "I need to be alone,"I said quietly as I finally looked him in the eyes.
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Post by haileyjordan on Aug 17, 2013 22:10:45 GMT -5
Gavin, I looked back into her eyes, seeing how much she meant it. I nodded, letting go of her hands. I left the room in silence. She could easily continue doing her drugs; I could only do so much to stop her.
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Post by lauren. on Aug 17, 2013 22:15:26 GMT -5
Ridley. I let out a small cry of frustration and anger after Gavin had left. How could I be so stupid, so immature? I picked everything up and left it on the bathroom counter. I looked at myself in the mirror, realizing that I don't look like myself anymore. I look dirty, sickly. I turned and went to start a shower, turning on the heat as high as it could go.
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Post by haileyjordan on Aug 17, 2013 22:17:28 GMT -5
Gavin, I went into the living room and just sat on the couch, staring at the blank television. What had happened? What was happening? I thought everything was okay. We have gone through too much to continue this downhill spiral.
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Post by lauren. on Aug 17, 2013 22:22:58 GMT -5
Ridley. I undressed and stepped into the shower, hissing in pain at how hot it was. I didn't change the temperature. I wanted to feel something other than numb right now. And I wanted to scrub my body raw to cleanse myself.
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Post by haileyjordan on Aug 17, 2013 22:24:55 GMT -5
Gavin, I shut my eyes, rubbing my face as I groaned. I just wanted her to be happy, without having to do what she's been doing. I felt as if this was my fault.
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Post by lauren. on Aug 17, 2013 22:28:17 GMT -5
Ridley. I finished in the shower feeling better. Thinking it through, knowing I was the one at fault here. I shouldn't have stopped to where I did. I wrapped my rob around my sensitive body now and went to the livingroom. I sat down next to Gavin, looking at him. "I'm sorry,"I mumbled, breathing in deeply.
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Post by haileyjordan on Aug 17, 2013 22:29:18 GMT -5
Gavin, I opened my eyes to look at her. I sighed softly, "Something's going to have to change," I said quietly, running my hand through my hair.
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